"In the blur between thoughts and smoke, I lost count of how many times I tried to feel alive. Silence screams louder at night, and even the light forgets to visit."

Channel
Identity of Emptiness
@zkoyk1
On this record: Growth · Engagement · What this channel posts · Reactions · Posts · Citations · Cite this entry
117subscribers
-4 since we began measuring on 7 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1003311392752 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @zkoyk1 |
| Created | Between 1 November 2025 and 31 March 2026 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 9 October 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 11 October 2026 |
| Measurements held | 8 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 11 October 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/zkoyk1 |
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 11 Oct 2026, 14:01 | 117 | -2 |
| 9 Oct 2026, 21:22 | 119 | no change |
| 17 Sept 2026, 07:20 | 119 | -2 |
| 9 Sept 2026, 17:41 | 121 | -1 |
| 30 Aug 2026, 19:57 | 122 | +1 |
| 24 Aug 2026, 04:36 | 121 | -1 |
| 15 Aug 2026, 11:44 | 122 | +1 |
| 7 Aug 2026, 16:33 | 121 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 27 July 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
- ERR · 30 days
- 4.27%
- avg views ÷ 117 subscribers
- Avg views / post
- 5.0
- 1 post measured
- Reaction rate
- —
- this channel exposes no reaction counts
- Posts in window
- 1
- of 20 held
ERR is average views per post over the last 30 days divided by subscribers, the definition TGStat uses, so this figure is comparable with the one you will see elsewhere. It falls structurally as a channel grows: a high ERR on a small channel and a low one on a large channel describe reach mathematics, not quality. We publish the figure and the sample it came from and pass no verdict on it.
ER is defined industry-wide as (forwards + reactions + comments) ÷ views — note the denominator is views, not subscribers. Telegram’s public web preview carries views and reactions but not forward or comment counts, so the reaction rate above is the reactions term only and is therefore a floor: the true ER for this channel is higher by an amount we have not measured and will not estimate.
| Window | Rolling 30 days · latest post in window 9 October 2026 |
|---|---|
| Posts held | 20 (27 July 2026 – 9 October 2026) |
| Views total | 5 |
| Reactions total | — |
| Forwards / comments | not exposed by the public surface — not measured, not estimated |
| Readings taken | 9 Oct 2026, 21:22 UTC |
Views are a single reading per post, taken at the time above. A post published in the last day or two is still accumulating views, which pulls the 30-day average down slightly. That is a property of the standard definition rather than a fault in it, so we keep the definition rather than “correcting” the number into something nobody can reproduce.
Precision. Telegram publishes view counts on its public widget in short form — 8.12K, 3.7M — so any reading at or above 1,000 reaches us rounded to three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. Averages and rates derived from them are shown to the same precision rather than to the unit: a figure like 3,701,250 would assert digits nobody measured.
Reaction counts are published per emoji and rounded the same way, so a total below 1,000 is exact and a larger one is a sum that may carry a rounded component from each emoji above 1,000. Because it is a sum, it does not look rounded — read a large reaction total as three significant figures per contributing emoji rather than as the figure it prints.
What this channel posts
- Video runtime
- 30s
- Average length
- 10s
Measured directly from 3 videos with a duration reading, out of the posts we hold for this channel — not this channel’s whole posting history, only the sample this register has actually read. An exact reading to the second, taken from the post itself rather than from Telegram’s own rounded chrome, so it carries no ≈ mark.
Reaction mix
1 reaction across 1 post, in 1 kind.
| Reaction | Count | Share | Share, drawn |
|---|---|---|---|
| ❤ | 1 | 100.0% |
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities — 🙏 is thanks in one channel and mourning in another — so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one — 4.34K, 1.2M — so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 1 of the 20 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegram’s own count on each post — not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above — those same posts carry 1 reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by “a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page”.
Measured over the 20 most recent posts we hold, published 27 July 2026 to 9 October 2026, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
Recent posts
I'm tired of pretending that I'm okay, smiling as if there is nothing wrong, while the truth is that I've been trying to hold myself together for a long time. I don't really care anymore about who stays and who leaves; I simply don't have the energy to explain what's going on inside me. All I want is a little peace to make these heavy days feel lighter. People may see my smile and think I'm doing fine, but no one kno…
Not everything you see in my eyes is the truth. Sometimes a look hides years of exhaustion, and behind the calm are things I could never put into words. I’m tired of pretending I’m fine while quietly trying to put myself back together. I smile, carry on with my day, and act like nothing is wrong, but the truth is that some pain never really disappears; you simply learn how to live with it. I don’t need anyone to feel…
“There are moments when you don’t even know what you’re feeling anymore. You just sit with yourself, looking at everything you’ve been through, wondering when you became this tired. I learned to hide it well enough that nobody notices, to smile when I don’t feel like smiling and to act like certain things no longer matter. But the truth is, some memories still stay with me, some people still cross my mind, and some f…
“These eyes have seen more than they ever learned how to say. Behind every quiet look, there are memories, sleepless nights, and feelings I chose to keep hidden. People see the eyes, but they don’t see the battles behind them. I learned how to smile while carrying things I could never explain, and how to say ‘I’m fine’ when I wasn’t. Maybe one day these tired eyes will finally look at life without carrying the weight…
“Lately, I’ve been spending more time with my own thoughts than with anyone else. I lie there for hours, staring at nothing, letting memories come and go without trying to hold onto them. I miss the person I used to be—the one who could enjoy simple things without thinking too much, who could sleep without carrying the whole day into the night. Somewhere between everything that happened, I started feeling distant fro…
“There are so many things I could say, but somehow I’ve learned that not every feeling needs an explanation. I’ve swallowed words, held back conversations, and kept certain thoughts to myself because I realized that sometimes speaking doesn’t change anything. People only hear what they want to hear, and some truths are better left inside than given to someone who won’t understand them. So I stopped explaining every c…
“Some days become too heavy to carry normally. You keep driving, keep moving, and keep telling yourself that everything will eventually make sense, but deep down you know you’re exhausted from pretending that nothing has changed. You start looking at life differently, not because you stopped caring, but because too many things happened at once. People see you going on with your day, but they don’t see how much effort…
“I’m tired of pretending to myself before I even pretend for everyone else. I keep telling myself that everything is normal when I know it isn’t, convincing myself that I’ve moved on from things that still hurt. I’m tired of laughing when I have no energy left, and saying ‘I’m fine’ when even I don’t believe myself anymore. Every day I try to be the person I used to be, only to realize how much I’ve changed because o…
@itv_c
“Everyone sees the crown, but no one sees what it takes to carry it. From the outside, I may look like someone who has everything under control, standing tall and wearing strength like a second skin. But behind the crown is a person who has learned to hide the parts of himself that feel tired, lost, and uncertain. The cape hides more than a body; it hides every struggle, every disappointment, and every moment when I …
I said, "The expensive one is for the foreigner," but I found everything cheap. I said, "The current one is better."
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @zkoyk1. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
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Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 11 October 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“Identity of Emptiness” (@zkoyk1), 117 subscribers as measured 11 October 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/zkoyk1.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.