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Channel
Ayda's Empty Notes
@toclearmymind
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · Posts · Cite this entry
37subscribers
+7 since we began measuring on 7 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1001848507404 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @toclearmymind |
| Created | Between 1 October 2022 and 30 September 2023 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 11 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 4 October 2026 |
| Measurements held | 4 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 2 times, most recently 4 October 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/toclearmymind |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 30 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 89% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 19 Sept 2026, 08:19 | 37 | +8 |
| 31 Aug 2026, 17:06 | 29 | -1 |
| 11 Aug 2026, 04:15 | 30 | no change |
| 7 Aug 2026, 10:29 | 30 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 14 June 2024 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 22 September 2025. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Recent posts
Idk if I need money, love or a cat.
فکر کنم سختترین کاری که تا امروز توی زندگی انجام دادم و همچنان دارم انجام میدم، اینه که هر روز به یه شکلی و با یه روشی، این آدم خسته رو به زندگی امیدوار کنم که بتونه ادامه بده.
میپرسه: چی نگهت داشته؟ میگم: خواستههایی که هنوز بهدستشون نیاوردم، لحظههایی که هنوز واردشون نشدم، حسهایی که هنوز تجربهشون نکردم، و خاطرههایی که هنوز نساختم. همین چیزها باعث شدن که ادامه بدم.
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حالا هرکی هم گفت پشتتم خوشحال نشو. بعضیها خنجر دستشونه.
آدمها در نهایت، یا پشیمونت میکنن، یا ناامیدت.
الان که به گذشته نگاه میکنم، میبینم چقدر گاهی طفلی و امیدوار بودم؛ فکر میکردم اگر آدم خوبی باشم، صادق باشم، توجه کنم، اهمیت بدم و ارزش بذارم، آدمها هم درمقابل همونطور با من رفتار میکنن.
تنها چیزی که این روزا از زندگی میخوام، آرامشه. آرامشی که از درون بیاد، بدون وابستگی به هیچ شرایطی، از پذیرفتن، از رها کردن چیزهایی که کنترلشون از دست من خارجه. آرامشی که توی عمیقترین نقطه وجودم جا خوش کنه.
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من فهمیدم که زندگی توی رها کردنه. رها کردنِ هرچیزی که دوستش داری ولی به هر نحوی داره آزارت میده. رها کردن یک شهر، یک احساس، یک شغل یا یک شخص. هر دفعه که چیزی رو رها کردم، چیز دیگهای رو بدست آوردم. همیشه همینطوری بوده! و به نظرم زندگی لابهلای همین بدست آوردنها و از دست دادنها شکل میگیره. این موضوع هم دردناک میتونه باشه و هم هیجانانگیز! گاهی وقتها یک چیز خیلی باارزش رو از دست میدی تا در مقابلش خود واقعیت رو …
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @toclearmymind. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 19 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“Ayda's Empty Notes” (@toclearmymind), 37 subscribers as measured 19 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/toclearmymind.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.