Perhaps the cruelest part is that there is no visible wound just a mind that never lets you rest. Sometimes, healing is not about silencing every thought; it is about learning that not every thought deserves to be believed.
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Channel
@reticxnce
On this record: Growth ยท Engagement ยท What this channel posts ยท Reactions ยท Posts ยท Citations ยท Cite this entry
64subscribers
-2 since we began measuring on 11 September 2026
Risers and fallers across the register ยท movement among entries of Under 1,000.
| Telegram ID | -1003079444334 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @reticxnce |
| Created | Between 1 August 2025 and 31 October 2025 โ estimated from Telegramโs id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 11 September 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 13 September 2026 |
| Measurements held | 3 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 13 September 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/reticxnce |
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 13 Sept 2026, 00:39 | 64 | -2 |
| 11 Sept 2026, 06:22 | 66 | no change |
| 11 Sept 2026, 05:47 | 66 | first reading |
20 posts held, back to 26 July 2026 โ the reader has not yet reached the start of this channelโs public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegramโs post history, 20 posts per page.
ERR is average views per post over the last 30 days divided by subscribers, the definition TGStat uses, so this figure is comparable with the one you will see elsewhere. It falls structurally as a channel grows: a high ERR on a small channel and a low one on a large channel describe reach mathematics, not quality. We publish the figure and the sample it came from and pass no verdict on it.
ER is defined industry-wide as (forwards + reactions + comments) รท views โ note the denominator is views, not subscribers. Telegramโs public web preview carries views and reactions but not forward or comment counts, so the reaction rate above is the reactions term only and is therefore a floor: the true ER for this channel is higher by an amount we have not measured and will not estimate.
| Window | Rolling 30 days ยท latest post in window 9 September 2026 |
|---|---|
| Posts held | 20 (26 July 2026 โ 9 September 2026) |
| Views total | 294 |
| Reactions total | 53 |
| Forwards / comments | not exposed by the public surface โ not measured, not estimated |
| Readings taken | 11 Sept 2026, 06:22 UTC |
Views are a single reading per post, taken at the time above. A post published in the last day or two is still accumulating views, which pulls the 30-day average down slightly. That is a property of the standard definition rather than a fault in it, so we keep the definition rather than โcorrectingโ the number into something nobody can reproduce.
Precision. Telegram publishes view counts on its public widget in short form โ 8.12K, 3.7M โ so any reading at or above 1,000 reaches us rounded to three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. Averages and rates derived from them are shown to the same precision rather than to the unit: a figure like 3,701,250 would assert digits nobody measured.
Reaction counts are published per emoji and rounded the same way, so a total below 1,000 is exact and a larger one is a sum that may carry a rounded component from each emoji above 1,000. Because it is a sum, it does not look rounded โ read a large reaction total as three significant figures per contributing emoji rather than as the figure it prints.
Measured directly from 2 videos with a duration reading, out of the posts we hold for this channel โ not this channelโs whole posting history, only the sample this register has actually read. An exact reading to the second, taken from the post itself rather than from Telegramโs own rounded chrome, so it carries no โ mark.
150 reactions across 20 posts, in 16 distinct kinds. The most used accounts for 18.7% of them.
| Reaction | Count | Share | Share, drawn |
|---|---|---|---|
| โค | 28 | 18.7% | |
| ๐ | 18 | 12.0% | |
| ๐ | 15 | 10.0% | |
| โคโ๐ฅ | 14 | 9.33% | |
| ๐ | 12 | 8.00% | |
| ๐ | 11 | 7.33% | |
| ๐ฅฐ | 10 | 6.67% | |
| ๐ฅ | 8 | 5.33% | |
| ๐ | 7 | 4.67% | |
| ๐ | 6 | 4.00% | |
| โก | 4 | 2.67% | |
| ๐ | 4 | 2.67% | |
| ๐ฏ | 4 | 2.67% | |
| ๐ | 3 | 2.00% | |
| ๐ | 3 | 2.00% | |
| ๐ฟ | 3 | 2.00% |
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities โ ๐ is thanks in one channel and mourning in another โ so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one โ 4.34K, 1.2M โ so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 20 of the 20 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegramโs own count on each post โ not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above โ those same posts carry 150 reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by โa reaction total printed elsewhere on the pageโ.
Measured over the 20 most recent posts we hold, published 26 July 2026 to 9 September 2026, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
Perhaps the cruelest part is that there is no visible wound just a mind that never lets you rest. Sometimes, healing is not about silencing every thought; it is about learning that not every thought deserves to be believed.
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You are not always broken by life; sometimes, you are killed by your own thoughts. Sometimes, nothing is falling apart around you, yet there is a war raging inside your head. One part of you wants to believe that everything will be okay, while another keeps reminding you of every reason it won't. You want to trust people, but your mind keeps preparing you for betrayal. You want to reach out, but a voice tells you thaโฆ
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Sticker, posted without a caption
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Is it foolish to fall in love with something you know you can never have? To love someone who only remembers you when they need you, then disappears the moment you need them? To keep handing them your heart when they keep proving they donโt know what to do with it? Maybe it is foolish. Or maybe we got so used to hurting that we started calling the ache love. Maybe being wanted in fragments was enough to make us forโฆ
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I was always homesick for the arms that would never hold me. Itโs strange, missing a place you were never allowed to call home, aching for a touch you never got to know. Maybe I was foolish to keep hoping, or maybe some part of me was cursed to crave what could never be mine. I donโt know if it was a curse or fate maybe it was both. ๐๏ธ๐๏ธ
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Sticker, posted without a caption
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Is this love, or am I dreaming again, knowing it will disappear the moment I wake?
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And the night feels colder than it ever could, as if even the darkness remembers what Iโm trying to forget.
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Fear. Everyone has a fear in life. I thought I did too , darkness, heights, things like that. But mine ended up being something much worse. Being left by people. And like every other fear, I thought I would learn to handle this one too. I thought maybe, with time, I would get used to people leaving. I never did. Instead, it became a nightmare that follows me everywhere. I was scared that people would forget me โฆ
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Sometimes, there is a strange relief in giving in to destruction. In letting the walls fall instead of desperately holding them up. In finally admitting that you are tired of saving what keeps breaking you. In watching everything you built collapse and realizing you don't have to rebuild it this time. Maybe destruction isn't always loud. Sometimes, it's simply the moment you stop fighting. And for once, the ruin fโฆ
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And the night falls , so does my heart
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This is so far a not so sad post ๐ซฅ
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Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @reticxnce. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked โ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it โ t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so โ1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Named by 8 registered channels โ every channel on the register whose own posts have named this one, by its current username or any other username it currently holds, merged from two separately captured readings of the same fact so a namer caught by only one of them is not missed and a namer both caught is not counted twice. A username this channel has since dropped is not matched โ that handle may belong to someone else now, and crediting todayโs namer to yesterdayโs owner would misattribute it.
Named by
Channels on the register whose posts name this channel's handle.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason โ naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides โ the โNamed by N registered channelsโ figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 13 September 2026 โ this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
โใ คใ คโ๐๐๐๐๐ ๐'รช๐๐๐โ (@reticxnce), 64 subscribers as measured 13 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/reticxnce.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV ยท JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.