Channel
@narxatun
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193subscribers
+0 since we began measuring on 7 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
| Telegram ID | -1001531881891 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @narxatun |
| Description | Pomegranate Moon in the water. Jack of all trades, master of none. BIPOC, Caucasus Native. Queer, Feminist, Neuro-divergent. Pagan polyglot, folklore occultist. Message outlet: @narxatunbot |
| Created | 1 November 2022 — measured — cross-checked against a third-party dataset (ext.tg_channel) |
| First recorded | 8 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 8 August 2026 |
| Measurements held | 2 |
| On Telegram | t.me/narxatun |
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 8 Aug 2026, 11:49 | 193 | no change |
| 7 Aug 2026, 19:56 | 193 | first reading |
18 posts held, back to 13 August 2023 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 pageof Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 18 posts for this entry, the most recent from 25 September 2023. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Lifetime counters from Telegram’s own channel header, read 8 August 2026 — not the date at the top of this page, which is when the subscriber count was last read. A count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints these counters in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈142,000 means somewhere between 141,500 and 142,499.
"Of course we're okay. We have to be. Tomorrow is coming with its plans and due dates and responsibilities. We don't have room for today or yesterday or any of our memories. We box them and hope the floor doesn't fall ouf of the attic and onto our heads. We live flinching, looking up, hoping today we hold it together. We have to just make it through tomorrow. Doesn't have to be pretty. We just have to be okay enough …
"Now I have really known suffering. And I have survived. I am alone—unloved, with or without someone to love—the thing I feared the most in the world. I have touched the bottom, and I have survived." — Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is harnessed Into The Flesh (edited by David Rieff)
"I will never outlast this pain (healing passage of time, etc.). It will only recede and diminish if I can somehow transpose the emotions—as from grief to anger, from despair to assent. I must become active. As long as I continue to experience myself as done to (not doing), this unbearable pain will not desert me—" — Susan Sontag, As Consciousness is harnessed Into The Flesh (edited by David Rieff)
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آقاجان پشت تلفن پرسید: «جانِ پدر کجاستی؟ یه خداحافظی نکردی؟ نمیخوای برگردی؟» کجا بودم؟ تو اتوبوس، تو ماشین، تو جاده، تو مهمانسرا؛ از این شهر به اون شهر. کار رو بهونه کرده بودم؛ میدونستم دردم چیز دیگهایه. خداحافظی نکردم؟ نه. انقدر ازدستدادم و رفتم و رها کردم و تارِک بودم که بعضی وقتها یادم میره وقتی از خاکم میزنم بیرون، ریشههام پشت پاهام کشیده میشن. نمیخواستم برگردم؟ نمیدونم. راستش قرار نبود انقدر طولانیم…
نوجوونی این شکلیه که مدرسه و کنکور بزرگترین مسئولیتته و احساس میکنی همه دارن حقتو میخورن و مادر پدرت دوستت ندارن و نمیذارن به رویاهای بزرگت برسی و ماتحت دنیا رو پاره کنی و وقتی ازت میپرسن حالت چطوره میگی: «دنیا پر از ظلم و ناعدالتیه و همه عوضین و من به این خونواده و جهان تعلق ندارم و کس ننه همتون من خودمو میکشم.» بزرگسالی هم اینطوره که مادرت و پدرت و هر کس دیگهای که خونوادهست و دوسش داری شدیدا مریضه یا داره…
Warsan Shire once wrote: "my body is burning with the shame of not belonging"; well, mine is palpitating under the guilt of unlived lives.
"No offense to God, but everything my mother prayed I wouldn't be, I became. Every place she prayed I wouldn't go, I went. I walked so long I found Mercy, I draped her thighs over my shoulders and drank; she's abundant and I'm finally alive. Had I been what I was supposed to be, I'd be my mother's safehouse. I'd be her motherland. I wouldn't wander, I would remain. Everything I've done has been in Love's name, and in…
"You're a heap of flesh and guts and blood in a wax museum. The only thing real. Sickeningly real. Crimson and warm where the others are pale and cold. Revoltingly red, neauseatingly alive." — Layana Clouet, "A Love Letter to a Dead Thing"
Then I started slipping out of the world. / And I kept on slipping. — Camille Norton, Corruption: Poems; "The Bardo of the Mind in Contemplation"
I was growing less and less attached to life. If I kept going, I thought, I'd disappear completely, then reappear in some new form. This was my hope. This was the dream. — Otessa Moshfegh, "My Year of Rest and Relaxation"
Showing the 12 most recent of 18 posts we hold for @narxatun. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Republishes
Channels on the register whose posts this channel has forwarded.
Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Names
Channels on the register whose handles appear in this channel's posts.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 8 August 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“نارخاتون” (@narxatun), 193 subscribers as measured 8 August 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/narxatun.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.