اني دائما يحتاج يتوضحلي ويتبررلي لأن اني افكاري تاكل بعقلي اذا جنت كل يوم تدزلي صباح الخير ويمها قلب وصارت بس صباح الخير احس بعد متحبني اني يمي يا ابيض يا اسود ماعندي منطقة رمادية ماعندي شي وسط اني اتحسس من كلشي ومن أي شي وكلشي يبقى بعقلي ومانام من التفكير ولأن اني هيج وتعرفون اني هيج ابقو بررولي أو وضحولي ولتگولون ميحتاج لان فعلاً احتاج بدون هلشي اني تلگاني مبتعدة 1000 متر عنك بسبب أفكاري ف ابقو بررولي

Channel
ذاكرة مبعثرة
@llllTBi
On this record: Growth · Engagement · What this channel posts · Stars · Posts · Telegram's recommendations · Cite this entry
10,633subscribers
-5 since we began measuring on 12 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of 10,000–31,623.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1002048328287 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @llllTBi |
| Description | ما يكتب هنا هو جزء من ذاكرتي المبعثرة Site: @ghadeery1bot |
| Created | Between 1 November 2023 and 31 May 2024— estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 12 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 14 August 2026 |
| Measurements held | 4 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 14 August 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/llllTBi |
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 14 Aug 2026, 20:24 | 10,633 | +3 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 11:16 | 10,630 | -6 |
| 12 Aug 2026, 09:44 | 10,636 | -2 |
| 12 Aug 2026, 01:46 | 10,638 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 29 May 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 4 pagesof Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 5 July 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
What this channel posts
- Photos
- 2
Lifetime counters from Telegram’s own channel header, read 15 August 2026 — not the date at the top of this page, which is when the subscriber count was last read. Below Telegram’s rounding threshold, so these counts are exact.
Telegram Stars
- Stars received
- 5
- across the posts below
- Posts paid on
- 2
- of 20 we hold a reading for · 10%
- Most on one post
- 3
- single highest reading
A paid reaction is a reader spending Telegram Stars — bought with money — on a post by @llllTBi. Telegram publishes the count on the public post preview alongside ordinary reactions, and this register reads it there. It is the only figure on this site that measures money moving rather than attention.
Stars are not reactions, and the two are never added. They are rendered in the same strip on Telegram and counted in the same shape, but one is a tap and the other is a purchase. The reaction totals and the engagement rate elsewhere on this page exclude every figure in this section, and no rate here is computed against a reaction count.
This is not revenue, and we publish no currency figure. What a Star costs a reader and what it pays a channel are different numbers, Telegram takes a share we cannot observe, and the terms have changed. Converting a Star count into money would be an estimate dressed as a measurement, so the count is where we stop.
Counted over the 20 most recent posts we hold for this entry, published 29 May 2026 to 5 July 2026. Star counts above 1,000 reach us in Telegram’s short form and carry the same three-significant-figure rounding as everything else on this page.
Recent posts
لا يوجد تقييمات لهذه الانجازات لايوجد كلام لطيف ولا حب
الأحلام والتوقعات هل تبقى عالقة في رأس الأنسان ومخيلتة أم تتحقق ؟ إذ بقيت عالقة والواقع يصطدم بكل حلم وتوقع ويقتلهٌ فَـ لماذا يفنى الأنسان عمرهُ بالحلم والأمل ؟ أليس هذا ما يقتل الذات ويدمرها؟ أم أن هذه الأحلام هي مسكنات لألآم الواقع ويعتقد الأنسان أنه سيشفى بهذه المسكنات؟لكنها ذات مفعول قصير ليس إلا ساعات ليصطدم بألم الواقع !
اصوات وحدتي تلتهم احشائي الأنوار منطفئة المنزل هادئ لكني اسمع ضوضاء عارمة تجعلني أشعر بأن ديدان تأكل دماغي الغريب أن الجميع نائم وأن الضوضاء مصدرها أنا أنا من الداخل
للذين أحبوا المكان وألفوا أهله، ولمن قوبلوا بالوفاء والحب على مدار الأيام والسنوات التي قضوا فيها معاً؛ يظلُّ الوداع بلا شك صعباً، حزيناً، ومبكياً. أما بالنسبة لي، فسيكون الوداع تحرراً. تحرراً لقلبي، ولدموعي، وللفرح الذي دفعتُ ثمنه من بكائي أضعافاً مضاعفة. تحرراً من كل شعورٍ زائف بالبهجة استفرغتُه لاحقاً، ومن تلك الأحلام الوردية التي عشتُها ثم استحالت سواداً ورماداً. هو تحررٌ من كل مكانٍ كانت دقات قلبي تنبض فيه بشدة …
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مختفي...بس من يمك موجود يم البقية محد يترك تلفونة كلها تلفوناتها بأيدها
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تبقى العائلة أساس كلشي بيئة العائلة صحية والأب يتحمل مسؤلية اخطائة نفسيتك وصحتك النفسية كلها تصير تمام وحتى حياتك وإذا كانت بيئة العائلة سامة والأهل كلهم يتذمرون والأب دائماً متذمر ويحول كل اخطائة على عائلتة انت هنا تگدر تستقبل اتعس شخصية مليانة أمراض نفسية
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احب اذگرك اني صرت انسان انتقائي بدخول الناس لحياتي وصعب اتقبل علاقة جديدة لأن اني بيوم من الايام جانت حياتي مليانة ناس ومحد من ذولة الناس گدر يحافظ علية ويعاملني صحيح وجانت النتيجة هي خسارة ذاتي
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @llllTBi. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Stars beside a post are paid reactions — Telegram Stars, bought with money and spent on that post. They are a different unit from reactions and are never added to them, here or anywhere else on this page.
Appears in Telegram’s recommendations for other channels
The reverse of the list above, and a different kind of signal. This does not require this channel to have ever been asked about directly — each row below is a channel we DID ask Telegram about, whose Telegram-generated list happened to include this one. A channel can appear here with an empty list above it, because being named by someone else’s query is independent of having been queried itself.
@povv4 · 125,798
Telegram ranks this channel #14 of 77 here — alongside 76 others — read 13 August 2026
@afQ55 · 126,066
Telegram ranks this channel #18 of 74 here — alongside 73 others — read 13 August 2026
@vc6Il · 132,586
Telegram ranks this channel #20 of 77 here — alongside 76 others — read 13 August 2026
@SlSl2l · 118,125
Telegram ranks this channel #21 of 73 here — alongside 72 others — read 14 August 2026
@Diilen · 114,672
Telegram ranks this channel #33 of 79 here — alongside 78 others — read 14 August 2026
@ERT8l · 130,315
Telegram ranks this channel #58 of 75 here — alongside 74 others — read 13 August 2026
@rr_rrora · 183,630
Telegram ranks this channel #59 of 77 here — alongside 76 others — read 12 August 2026
@NU_G5 · 137,599
Telegram ranks this channel #62 of 74 here — alongside 73 others — read 13 August 2026
This channel appears in 8 seed channels' Telegram-generated recommendation lists in total. Each is Telegram’s list for THAT channel, not this one — see how this is measured.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 14 August 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“ذاكرة مبعثرة” (@llllTBi), 10,633 subscribers as measured 14 August 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/llllTBi.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.