I just want to sleep and not wake up until I feel refreshed (I won't wake up again)

Channel
@fuysel
@fuysel
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · Posts · Citations · Cite this entry
31subscribers
+13 since we began measuring on 13 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1002955447375 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @fuysel |
| Created | Between 1 August 2025 and 31 October 2025 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 13 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 29 September 2026 |
| Measurements held | 7 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 29 September 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/fuysel |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 30 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 72% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 29 Sept 2026, 15:17 | 31 | +4 |
| 16 Sept 2026, 04:17 | 27 | +1 |
| 9 Sept 2026, 02:15 | 26 | +2 |
| 29 Aug 2026, 19:44 | 24 | +3 |
| 22 Aug 2026, 07:17 | 21 | +1 |
| 14 Aug 2026, 19:36 | 20 | +2 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 18:47 | 18 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 19 July 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 12 August 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Recent posts
they offer me their hearts so easily it’s almost funny little do they know my heart is already occupied by you
I laugh at their rushed confessions finding them hollow because how can they compare to the depth of what I feel for you?
I’ve felt like a stranger everywhere I go like every place is home to someone else but never to me
pillowcase stuffed with tears and i lay in my mind it's so hard to stay alive
you’re mine. the kind of mine my heart whispers and my body aches for. I could spend endless hours tracing your skin with my fingertips stealing slow kisses from your lips and getting hopelessly lost in the warmth of you. you are my sweetest temptation the one I could never get enough of.
Idk how much longer I can keep actin' like I'm okay I'm so damn tired of cryin' tired of carryin' all this pain every single day feels like I ain't got nothin' left in me sometimes I think it'd be easier if I just disappeared I don't wanna keep hurtin' anymore I just wanna feel alive again
If I ever made one good decision in my life it was the one I made that day
hate me or love me I don't give shit
I need to stop trying to see the good in people because y’all are fucking terrible actually
'Cause at the end of the day I ask myself "Does anyone even care that I'm sad?"
even if u tell me what's bothering u I won't talk about it
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @fuysel. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Forward network
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Channels on the register that have forwarded this channel's posts into their own feed.
Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 29 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“@fuysel” (@fuysel), 31 subscribers as measured 29 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/fuysel.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.