我喜欢听别人讲述ta自己的故事 真实的也好,编造的也罢 关键在于你会感受到对方愿意说出来时心中轻松的感觉 而另一个关键呢?是陌生 不是从小玩到大的朋友,也不是会在街头碰面的熟人 是山与山之间回音的来往,是陆地与船不能长久的照面

Channel
骸姆达的杂物间🙃
@Himdr_wrt
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · Reactions · Posts · Cite this entry
53subscribers
-1 since we began measuring on 7 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1002555816407 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @Himdr_wrt |
| Created | Between 1 March 2025 and 13 June 2025 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 10 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 6 October 2026 |
| Measurements held | 3 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 2 times, most recently 6 October 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/Himdr_wrt |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 29 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 96% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 26 Sept 2026, 19:38 | 53 | -1 |
| 10 Aug 2026, 09:00 | 54 | no change |
| 7 Aug 2026, 17:49 | 54 | first reading |
Engagement
19 posts held, back to 13 June 2025 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 19 posts for this entry, the most recent from 21 April 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Reaction mix
2 reactions across 1 post, in 1 kind.
| Reaction | Count | Share | Share, drawn |
|---|---|---|---|
| ❤ | 2 | 100.0% |
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities — 🙏 is thanks in one channel and mourning in another — so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one — 4.34K, 1.2M — so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 1 of the 19 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegram’s own count on each post — not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above — those same posts carry 2 reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by “a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page”.
Measured over the 19 most recent posts we hold, published 13 June 2025 to 21 April 2026, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
Recent posts
不过实际上我依旧在寻求认可,希望被认可,希望被喜欢,这是刻在骨子里下意识的选择,会下意识的打开社交软件,看对方有没有来找我,有没有人点赞,他们会不会觉得我很好,觉得我聪明,我完全的活在了别人的目光里,而我也完全无法不这样,因为我就像是一颗以目光为食的幽灵怪物,无法得到注视,无法得到凝视,失去工具的属性,失去被利用的价值,那么我就会失去,就会消逝,就会达到非物理意义的消亡,即便我知道不被人注视凝视利用并不会怎么样,可是那个“后果”就像是一堵只进不退无边无际的黑墙,我不敢触摸,也不能触摸,因为我很清楚,我会失去一切动力,失去我人生的一切价值,我会混迹于街头,我会成为放弃了人生的废物,我会死在某处精神的废墟当中
❤2
嗯?怎么?今天想起来找我? 看你还蛮开心的,怎么样,考试通过了吗? 我就说过,你比他们都强一点 所以嘛,看看我准备了什么 相信我,你会喜欢的... 你的身体好烫... 什么叫我也一样... 明明刚刚擅自去的人是你... 好像含住这里的话,抖得会更厉害一点... 不喜欢吗?... 哼哼,我就知道,说不要就是要,真是的... 安全词? 嗯...我想想... 别跑... *水声* 嗯哼?看起来很喜欢这里哦 上面的嘴巴说不行,下面的嘴巴老实的很... 啊,我想到了,安全词就是... 『我爱你』 已经听不见了呢... ▋▋▋...你看你骚的...
正是因为这些特质在现实中格外罕见,它们才会在网络上出现,并得到大家的追捧,甚至成为一些人的人设,因为人总爱追逐那些会让自己心灵感到完整的东西,即『我所缺失的另一面』 正如它总会像镜子一样贯穿史今 盛世天朝,人们中意风流才子,执剑天涯;战争四起,又喜狂鬃烈马,血海纵横;父辈在建设中成长,与贫困做斗争,艰苦奋斗是常态,顶天立地是应该;而在如今,我们所要面对与对抗的,“敌人”,呈现出了全新的形态,是那份根植于每个人心中,难以祛除的存在主义危机。 艺术作品向来不是一个人的作品,而是一个时代所有人意识与精神追求的总和,共同所向往的美,当你阅读一本书,遇见一个人,经历各种各样的事时,都会感受到散落于其中的人性碎片,它会拼凑出独属于这个时代的,我们对世界的理解。 这样,便解释了许多,可能我们追求与向往的,并非某种实际存在的价值,而是由时代所推动,而又由集体所创造的,代表“可望而不可及”的投影,或者我更愿意称之为“时代的精神之镜”。 …
我发现自己似乎没有固定的东西渴望追求 而是当看到他人将诸如喜爱、注意力或强烈的情感汇聚向哪里,哪里就会变成我追求的靶子。 而这更像是一种本能反应 也就是看到任意一个人,ta说ta喜欢什么,我就会渴望成为什么,于是无数的人喜欢无数的类型,我也就渴望成为无数的类型的人 而我在被撕扯,在被分裂,而始终无法成为,或者说接受我自己的存在,和我自己相处的每一分每一秒都感到无比的厌恶 因为我在以人们的目光为食
我感受到自己内心有什么东西改变了,像是一个开关被打开,又或者一座城墙向外倾倒,也似如我走进了夏日温热的瓢泼大雨之中,我很难更加确切的描述那份美感,但既然我用美感二字,它便是积极的吧,只是它也似乎不再愿意现身,而是向着泥潭的更深处走去,在我的眼中只剩下了它的背影,与在洁白雪地里稀疏散落的足迹,它走了,它和我道了别,它告诉我我不再需要它,就像是我梦中的一位幻想出来的完美的父亲,曾经愿意抱着我一同安眠,直到它告诉我:“我们终究要独自享受离别。”
有时候我似乎越发地能够感受到人类的局限性,被时代与种族裹挟着向前,正如那一句“我们是被扔到这个世界上的”那样。 或许正是因为我们是人类,于是企图寻找自身的意义,而并非是这个世界真的存在着意义,唯有一成不变的混沌,让无论是宏观还是微观都上演着光怪陆离。 弱小,像蚂蚁一样爬行,在死亡面前临危不惧,从高处跌落让一段旧的人生化为新的虚幻泡影,燃烧,尖锐火苗挑衅世界的反抗意志,直到连星星们都不自觉的向着大地低垂,杀死那些还未回家的人。
你想要的只是一个身份,一个能被内心深处的自我厌恶所接受的身份。 因为人可以拥有生命,却总是无法心安理得的活着。
突然意识到,这个世界的确很大,大到任何一个人在其中都显得格外渺小。 小到什么程度呢?它不会在乎你的一切感受,不会公平的评价你所做的一切,也不会因为你的弱小而对你有任何的包容。 于是尤其是在夜晚,你会发现,真正能称得上是“盟友”的,唯有你的身体,那些支撑你站起来的肌肉纤维,使你可以了解自己处在何方感官系统,还有你的精神。 我无法形容那种孤独,并没有经历什么坏事,只是突如其来的: “我发现我无法再用自己的想法去揣测他人了。”
主打一个锻炼意志力
骑行12小时,145公里到泰山,睡4小时紧接起来爬泰山,登顶用时3.5小时
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Showing the 12 most recent of 19 posts we hold for @Himdr_wrt. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 26 September 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“骸姆达的杂物间🙃” (@Himdr_wrt), 53 subscribers as measured 26 September 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/Himdr_wrt.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.