Канал для тех, кто внешне справляется, а внутри все чаще задаётся вопросом: "Это вообще моя жизнь?"
Кризис → Перемены
Надо & Хочу
Самооценка + Внутренняя опора
Делаю Круг Силы - практика в группе
t.me/+ZGuHMNwtR384MDUy
Автор: @Anna_Artyomova
Created
Between 1 June 2024 and 30 September 2024— estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated.
2 measurements taken within a single day. Dots are measurements; the straight line between them is drawn to join them, not to claim we know the path taken in between — snapshots are recorded only when a count changes, so gaps mean “no change observed”, never “interpolated”. The vertical axis spans 115–117 and does not start at zero.
Measurement log — every subscribers count we have recorded
Measured (UTC)
Subscribers
Change
9 Aug 2026, 05:30
116
no change
8 Aug 2026, 11:32
116
first reading
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 15 July 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 pageof Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
ERR · 30 days
30.1%
avg views ÷ 116 subscribers
Avg views / post
34.9
18 posts measured
Reaction rate
18.2%
reactions ÷ views · ER floor
Posts in window
18
of 20 held
ERR is average views per post over the last 30 days divided by subscribers, the definition TGStat uses, so this figure is comparable with the one you will see elsewhere. It falls structurally as a channel grows: a high ERR on a small channel and a low one on a large channel describe reach mathematics, not quality. We publish the figure and the sample it came from and pass no verdict on it.
ER is defined industry-wide as (forwards + reactions + comments) ÷ views— note the denominator is views, not subscribers. Telegram’s public web preview carries views and reactions but not forward or comment counts, so the reaction rate above is the reactions term only and is therefore a floor: the true ER for this channel is higher by an amount we have not measured and will not estimate. It is computed over the 17 of 18 measured posts that carry a reaction reading, and over those same posts' views.
What these figures were computed from
Window
Rolling 30 days · latest post in window 8 August 2026
Posts held
20 (15 July 2026 – 8 August 2026)
Views total
628
Reactions total
111
Forwards / comments
not exposed by the public surface — not measured, not estimated
Readings taken
9 Aug 2026, 05:30 UTC
Views are a single reading per post, taken at the time above. A post published in the last day or two is still accumulating views, which pulls the 30-day average down slightly. That is a property of the standard definition rather than a fault in it, so we keep the definition rather than “correcting” the number into something nobody can reproduce.
Precision. Telegram publishes view counts on its public widget in short form — 8.12K, 3.7M — so any reading at or above 1,000 reaches us rounded to three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. Averages and rates derived from them are shown to the same precision rather than to the unit: a figure like 3,701,250 would assert digits nobody measured.
Reaction counts are published per emoji and rounded the same way, so a total below 1,000 is exact and a larger one is a sum that may carry a rounded component from each emoji above 1,000. Because it is a sum, it does not look rounded — read a large reaction total as three significant figures per contributing emoji rather than as the figure it prints.
What this channel posts
Photos
226
Videos
15
Links
110
Lifetime counters from Telegram’s own channel header, read 9 August 2026 — not the date at the top of this page, which is when the subscriber count was last read. Below Telegram’s rounding threshold, so these counts are exact.
Reaction mix
125 reactions across 19 posts, in 7 distinct kinds. The most used accounts for 48.0% of them.
Every reaction kind recorded on the sample, most used first
Reaction
Count
Share
Share, drawn
❤
60
48.0%
❤🔥
31
24.8%
🔥
19
15.2%
💯
7
5.60%
👍
5
4.00%
🤩
2
1.60%
custom 5195105777391514641
1
0.8%
Custom emoji. One row above is a Telegram custom emoji, which the public preview renders as an element carrying only a numeric id — no character, and no image we can reach. The id is printed as-is rather than substituted with a look-alike glyph, because a stand-in would be our invention showing where a measurement should be. The count beside it isTelegram’s.
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities — 🙏 is thanks in one channel and mourning in another — so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one — 4.34K, 1.2M — so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 19 of the 20 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegram’s own count on each post — not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above — those same posts carry 125reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by “a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page”.
Measured over the 20 most recent posts we hold, published 15 July 2026 to 8 August 2026, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
Telegram Stars
Stars received
1
across the posts below
Posts paid on
1
of 20 we hold a reading for · 5%
Most on one post
1
single highest reading
A paid reaction is a reader spending Telegram Stars — bought with money — on a post by @Artyomova_Anna. Telegram publishes the count on the public post preview alongside ordinary reactions, and this register reads it there. It is the only figure on this site that measures money moving rather than attention.
Stars are not reactions, and the two are never added. They are rendered in the same strip on Telegram and counted in the same shape, but one is a tap and the other is a purchase. The reaction totals and the engagement rate elsewhere on this page exclude every figure in this section, and no rate here is computed against a reaction count.
This is not revenue, and we publish no currency figure. What a Star costs a reader and what it pays a channel are different numbers, Telegram takes a share we cannot observe, and the terms have changed. Converting a Star count into money would be an estimate dressed as a measurement, so the count is where we stop.
Counted over the 20 most recent posts we hold for this entry, published 15 July 2026 to 8 August 2026. Star counts above 1,000 reach us in Telegram’s short form and carry the same three-significant-figure rounding as everything else on this page.
Девочка, которая боялась жизни, больше чем смерти
Я неудобная – та, что вне рамок и границ. Со своим мнением и судьбой. Что, если я проживу жизнь не так, как все. Что скажут?
Не буду жить сильно, честно, вот так.
Я знаю, как правильно. Знаю, как надо. Держу уверенное лицо той, которая не боится.
Только внутри гашу себя. Ведь знаю, только не верю.
Не вступлю в конфликт, чтобы лишний раз не пачкаться. Не разрушу сво…
Признаки, что ты перерос свою прежнюю жизнь:
1. Разговоры
Ты слушаешь и ловишь себя на мысли: «О чем мы вообще говорим?».
Когда начинаешь разговор о важном, возникает странное ощущение: «Меня не слышат».
Люди не стали хуже. А ты можешь поймать вину, думая, что стал скучным или высокомерным. На самом деле просто внутри появились другие смыслы.
2. Достижения
Новые впечатления. Победы. Приходят деньги.
«И что дальше…
В активном поиске я хваталась за любые знания. Пробовала все на себе.
Потом фраза: Другой возможности могут не дать.
И еще более бережное отношение к тому, что попадается на глаза. Потому что первая здоровая реакция - отрицание: мне это не нужно или непонимаю зачем.
Не навязываю, но скажу по опыту: настоящие изменения начинаются там, где тебя ведёт не маркетолог на покупку, а внутренняя чуйка. Но чтобы ее раскача…
Я подумала: "Где их женщины?"
Вчера на пляже я увидела мужчин и детей.
Двое дедушек, отец, две маленькие девочки и подросток.
Девочка держала дедушек за руки и топала к воде.
Шестилетняя внучка испугалась, когда дедушка предложил отпустить руки и лечь на воду.
- Я хочу в начало!
- Не бойся, я держу тебя.
Она была в его руках и плавательных нарукавниках.
Не на шутку испугавшись, о вере не было и речи.
Чуть позже …
Кто я
Анна. 40 лет. Первая в семье. Третья у отца.
18 лет работы с казной. Писала законы. Переезжала. Влюблялась. Разочаровывалась. Искала смыслы. Пережила рану от психолога. Сходила с ума от белых ночей и северного сияния. Дышала воздухом Адриатики. Обнимала Черноземье. Убегала от экзистенциального одиночества. Теряла себя. Исполняла чужие мечты. Опытный психонавт. Трансперсональный коуч. Практик цигун.
Из чего выр…
Случайно попала на эфир А.В. Курпатова:
• Кризис около 35 - первая волна энергии сходит: "Что я вообще делаю?".
• Кризис около 44 - осознания, что жизнь пишется на чистую. Черновика нет. Риск уйти в злобу на мир из-за несбывшихся надежд и впустую потраченного время.
• Сегодня приходится начинать заново и в 30, и в 40, и в 50 лет. Важный навык уметь перепредумать себя.
• Непонимание себя, сомнения в себе, опусташенно…
Почему рядом с одним человеком я снова становлюсь маленьким?
Каждый раз встречается человек, который обламывает всю проделанную работу над собой.
Умный, начитанный и даже ходил к психологу. Но… появляется тот, кто легким движением языка произносит пару волшебных слов: «Ты слишком чувствительный» или «С тобой сложно».
Самое странное потом.
Ты начинаешь проверять себя:
«А может, правда?»
«Может, со мной действительн…
Мы остались с племянницей вдвоем, пока ждали ее маму. Лежали на траве стадиона. Смотрели на цветы и божьих коровок.
Девочка с велосипедом и мячом в руках предложила Оле поиграть. Вернее, не предложила - начала говорить, что Оля будет делать.
Я вообще не знаток в детских отношениях, но вижу, что моя крошка молчит и немного напряжена.
Тихо спрашиваю: «Ты хочешь играть?»
- Нет.
- Скажи об этом девочке, а я рядом, поде…
Я эмоционально устала
По хронологии: прилет бпла в дом в 7 минутах ходьбы от меня, провела группу «Кто я, современная женщина?», день с родственниками и три с племянниками.
Волна испуга сменилась радостью и тревожностью о комфорте ребят. А любая эмоция, включая позитив, требует ресурса.
День я провела не выходя из дома. Тупила в телефон и ела. Знаю, что для меня это не норма, но с учетом моего состояния здоровья – …
❤6❤🔥2🔥1
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @Artyomova_Anna. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Stars beside a post are paid reactions — Telegram Stars, bought with money and spent on that post. They are a different unit from reactions and are never added to them, here or anywhere else on this page.
Citation-graph rank
Citation-graph rank — 129,022 of 1,481,306entries in the measured graph. A weighted position computed from the forward and mention edges below — republished posts weigh more than named mentions — and recomputed periodically, over the whole graph. Published only as this ordinal position, never as a score: a position is a fact, and a score printed beside one channel’s name would read as a verdict this register does not make. The two counts beneath stay separate for the same reason mentions are never summed with forwards anywhere else on this page — a named-by count costs nothing to manufacture. The top 100 by this measure, or how it is computed.
Forward network
Republished by
Channels on the register that have forwarded this channel's posts into their own feed.
Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Mentions
Named by 1 registered channel — every channel on the register whose own posts have named this one, by its current username or any other username it currently holds, merged from two separately captured readings of the same fact so a namer caught by only one of them is not missed and a namer both caught is not counted twice. A username this channel has since dropped is not matched — that handle may belong to someone else now, and crediting today’s namer to yesterday’s owner would misattribute it.
Named by
Channels on the register whose posts name this channel's handle.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 9 August 2026 — this
entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“Выйти за пределы | Анна Артёмова” (@Artyomova_Anna), 116 subscribers as measured 9 August 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/Artyomova_Anna.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.
