عزيزي وحبيبي الوحيد أنا حزين لأنني توقفت عن حب الأشياء التي كنت أحبها، لأنني لم أعد أستطيع ممارسة أي نشاط بشغف، لأن حياتي كلها عبارة عن إكراه لأن السفن لا تجري كما تشتهي الرياح ولأن الأحلام تبقى مجرد أحلام ولا تتكرر مجددًا لأن الواقع جحيمٌ لا مهرب منه ..

Channel
if i can
@nothing617
On this record: Topic · Growth · Engagement · Posts · Telegram's recommendations · Cite this entry
1,297subscribers
-25 since we began measuring on 7 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of 1,000–3,162.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1001881621285 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @nothing617 |
| Created | Between 1 October 2022 and 30 September 2023 — estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 7 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 11 October 2026 |
| Measurements held | 16 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 11 October 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/nothing617 |
Topic
Personal blog — a classification, not a measurement. An on-box language model (Qwen3.6-35B-A3B-FP8, prompt version 1) read this channel’s own recent posts on 18 September 2026 and assigned it the closest of 31 fixed categories, at 75% confidence. This is a model’s judgement about what the channel is likely to be about, not a fact this register measured the way a subscriber count or a view count is measured — it can be revised on a later pass, and it carries no weight anywhere else on this page. How this classification works, and why it has no browse page of its own yet.
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 11 Oct 2026, 03:56 | 1,297 | +1 |
| 5 Oct 2026, 07:01 | 1,296 | -3 |
| 26 Sept 2026, 21:39 | 1,299 | -12 |
| 17 Sept 2026, 19:59 | 1,311 | -1 |
| 13 Sept 2026, 22:36 | 1,312 | +2 |
| 10 Sept 2026, 12:35 | 1,310 | +3 |
| 4 Sept 2026, 23:17 | 1,307 | -4 |
| 1 Sept 2026, 00:15 | 1,311 | -6 |
| 26 Aug 2026, 00:47 | 1,317 | -1 |
| 23 Aug 2026, 06:48 | 1,318 | -1 |
| 19 Aug 2026, 23:37 | 1,319 | -2 |
| 16 Aug 2026, 21:56 | 1,321 | -3 |
| 13 Aug 2026, 13:34 | 1,324 | +1 |
| 7 Aug 2026, 22:31 | 1,323 | no change |
| 7 Aug 2026, 18:12 | 1,323 | +1 |
| 7 Aug 2026, 12:10 | 1,322 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 23 July 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 page of Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 6 August 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Recent posts
خالص والله.
علشان انا أصلا مش شبه نفسي اللي انا متعود عليها – دواعي السفر 2024 .
تراهُ مُبتسمًا كأنَّهُ ما ذاقَ الأسى يومًا يؤنسُ الجميع؛ والوحشة كلُّ الوحشة في قلبهِ..
النومة اللي بتنامها بعد ماعينك تورم من العياط وتصحى متقبل كل حاجه اصل هتعمل ايه
عزيزي الحياةُ هنا قاسية إلى أبعد حدً، لا تقتلك دفعةً واحدةً، بل تُعيدُك إلى سريرك كل ليلةٍ، وأنت أقل قليلًا ممن كنت عليه في الصباح. -سهيلة فريخة.
أسوأ الفترات اللي بيكون فيها حزنك بينك وبين روحك مفيش حد يعرف اللي جواك لأنك مبتتكلمش والكل فاكر انك في نعيم ف بيكمل عليك..
لطالما كنتِ تكرهين الوداع تقولين أنكِ ذات مرّةٍ قد فقدتِ يدك بعد تلويحة طويلة ومن حينها وأنتِ تهربين، حتّى بقيتي هكذا امرأة وحيدة بيدٍ واحدة وحُزن يسِع أطراف العالم
سبت الرصاص جوه قلبي ونزلت ألم الفوارغ، ورجعت أقول إنتي جنبي ؟ قولتيلي وده جرح بالغ انتي بطبيعتك تخبي وانا بطبيعتي مبالغ ده شئ كلفني تعبي غير انه كلف مبالغ..
لم أطلب من العمر مستحيلاً كنت أرجو مساحةً من الطمأنينة تليقُ بصدقي ، ولكنها الحياة تغلق الأبواب في وجه من أراد .
ألم يكن من الأفضل لو لم ابدأ على الإطلاق؟ لقد كنت أريد أن أذهب بعيدًا عن البشر، أن أعيش وحدي، كنت أريد أن أكون حرًا — Dostoevsky.
يُدربُ نفسه على اللامبالاة؛ لأن شعوره الزائد كاد يقتله.
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @nothing617. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Appears in Telegram’s recommendations for other channels
The reverse of the list above, and a different kind of signal. This does not require this channel to have ever been asked about directly — each row below is a channel we DID ask Telegram about, whose Telegram-generated list happened to include this one. A channel can appear here with an empty list above it, because being named by someone else’s query is independent of having been queried itself.
@UntilWhen_0 · 23,569
Telegram ranks this channel #35 of 68 here — alongside 67 others — read 18 September 2026
This channel appears in 1 seed channel's Telegram-generated recommendation list in total. Each is Telegram’s list for THAT channel, not this one — see how this is measured.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 11 October 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“if i can” (@nothing617), 1,297 subscribers as measured 11 October 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/nothing617.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.