أن تغصّ بالخيبة، لا لأنك كنتَ ضعيف التوقّع، بل لأنك منحت قلبك ثقةً كاملة، ثم عاد إليك مثقوبًا بالخذلان. فالخيبة يا صديقي، ليست مجرد عثرة عابرة، بل جرحٌ صامت يصرخ في أعماقك، وجدارٌ من الانكسار تخبئ وراءه صدى أمانيك. ومع كل هذا، تختار أن تبتسم، وتخبئ انكسارك حيث لا يصل إليه أحد.. !

Channel
تمرد كـاتـب..!
@bjxxxxxj
On this record: Growth · Engagement · Reactions · Posts · Citations · Cite this entry
258subscribers
-1 since we began measuring on 6 August 2026
Risers and fallers across the register · movement among entries of Under 1,000.
Register entry
| Telegram ID | -1001243259249 |
|---|---|
| Type | Channel |
| Username | @bjxxxxxj |
| Created | Between 1 March 2018 and 31 July 2021— estimated from Telegram’s id allocation, not measured. How this range is calculated. |
| First recorded | 7 August 2026 |
| Last confirmed live | 14 August 2026 |
| Measurements held | 3 |
| Confirmed unchanged | 1 time, most recently 14 August 2026 |
| On Telegram | t.me/bjxxxxxj |
Growth
| Measured (UTC) | Subscribers | Change |
|---|---|---|
| 14 Aug 2026, 21:37 | 258 | -1 |
| 7 Aug 2026, 01:33 | 259 | no change |
| 6 Aug 2026, 23:04 | 259 | first reading |
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 2 September 2025 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 1 pageof Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 14 October 2025. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
Reaction mix
4 reactions across 3 posts, in 1 kind.
| Reaction | Count | Share | Share, drawn |
|---|---|---|---|
| ❤ | 4 | 100.0% |
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities — 🙏 is thanks in one channel and mourning in another — so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one — 4.34K, 1.2M — so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 4 of the 20 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegram’s own count on each post — not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above — those same posts carry 4reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by “a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page”.
Measured over the 20 most recent posts we hold, published 2 September 2025 to 14 October 2025, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
Recent posts
تستطيع أن تعيش بلا أحد وتُدير حياتك بشكلٍ جيّد، لا تعتقد أن الإتكاء على الآخرين موضع أمان نعم تستطيع .. !
❤1
كان الأمر يشبه نزع شاش متصل بجرحٍ طري.. !
❤2
عندما يهدأ الكون،، وينسدل الظلام على العيون .. تبدأ الذكريات المحطمة في اعماقك بالخروج… تمر ع عقلك الذي يفتح لها المجال .ثم تراها بعيون قلبك… فيصحى الحنين من سباتة… ليسامرك حتى الفجر.. !
❤1
اعتقد أن أبشع ما يمر به المرء أن يدفع ثمن صدقه, عاطفته، يدفع ثمن أنه كان حقيقي أكثر من اللازم في يومٍ من الأيام.. !
لست حزينًا ولا كئيبًا‘ـ بل اسوء من الامرين أنا فارغ و لاشيء يُرضيني وجهي شاحب اطرافي جامده معدتي تؤلمني دائمًا افكاري تسبب لي صداع. وليست هناك ايًا دموع.. !
أيام ليتها تنعاد وأيام ليتها ما كانت .. !
انّه لحزنٌ عميق أن تبقى دائماً تراوغ الأنكسار الذي ينمو داخلك أن تراقب الوجع وكأنّ الأمر لا يعني لك شيء، أن تختار الكبرياء وسط الإنهيار..!.
"لقد كان مؤذيًا جدًا أن لا يستقر شعوري لهذا الحدّ، أن أشعر وكأني في لحظة بين الغيم أطير وفي لحظاتٍ أخرى أشعر وكأني تحت الأرض أهوى .. !
الأسباب لا تمنع أحد مهما كانت ثقيلة ومؤسفة ومزعجة الحقيقة كلها واقفة على صدق الرغبة، على عُمق الغاية وعلى مكانتك أحيانًا.. !
- وكنت متشبث بك جدًا ، حتى وصلت بي إلى أكثر الأماكن خطورة و أوقعت بي في غياهب الحزنُ أصارع بعدك خيبتي.. ،!
كيف لي أن أخبرك أن الحياة تسير عكس ما أريده تمامًا، أتمنى بقاء الشيء فيزول، و أتمسك جيدًا بالأشخاص فيرحلون، و أقدم قلبي قربانًا من أجل لحظة اطمئنان فأمكث في الخوف وحدي، أسعى جاهدًا ألا أصيب أحدًا بأذى، فيؤذيني الجميع.. !
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @bjxxxxxj. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Citation-graph rank
Citation-graph rank — 1,319,481 of 1,481,277entries in the measured graph. A weighted position computed from the forward and mention edges below — republished posts weigh more than named mentions — and recomputed periodically, over the whole graph. Published only as this ordinal position, never as a score: a position is a fact, and a score printed beside one channel’s name would read as a verdict this register does not make. The two counts beneath stay separate for the same reason mentions are never summed with forwards anywhere else on this page — a named-by count costs nothing to manufacture. The top 100 by this measure, or how it is computed.
Mentions
Named by 4 registered channels — every channel on the register whose own posts have named this one, by its current username or any other username it currently holds, merged from two separately captured readings of the same fact so a namer caught by only one of them is not missed and a namer both caught is not counted twice. A username this channel has since dropped is not matched — that handle may belong to someone else now, and crediting today’s namer to yesterday’s owner would misattribute it.
Named by
Channels on the register whose posts name this channel's handle.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 14 August 2026 — this entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“تمرد كـاتـب..!” (@bjxxxxxj), 258 subscribers as measured 14 August 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/bjxxxxxj.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.