Everything was raw and painful and confusing and wrong and yet it was as if I'd been dragged from freezing water through a break in the ice, into sun and blazing cold.
🛋️ t.me/BluChatRobot?start=youretalkingwsun
Created
17 June 2020 — measured — cross-checked against a third-party dataset (ext.tg_channel)
5 measurements spanning 3 days, net -34. Dots are measurements; the straight line between them is drawn to join them, not to claim we know the path taken in between — snapshots are recorded only when a count changes, so gaps mean “no change observed”, never “interpolated”. The vertical axis spans 9,994–10,038 and does not start at zero.
Measurement log — every subscribers count we have recorded
Measured (UTC)
Subscribers
Change
10 Aug 2026, 16:52
9,999
-8
9 Aug 2026, 13:21
10,007
-12
8 Aug 2026, 14:03
10,019
-14
7 Aug 2026, 16:00
10,033
no change
7 Aug 2026, 15:48
10,033
first reading
Engagement
20 posts held, back to 1 June 2026 — the reader has not yet reached the start of this channel’s public history, so older posts may sit further back, unread. Read across 15 pagesof Telegram’s post history, 20 posts per page.
Nothing published in the last 30 days. ERR and ER are rolling 30-day measures, so there is nothing to compute — we hold 20 posts for this entry, the most recent from 7 June 2026. An engagement rate over an empty window would be a number about nothing.
What this channel posts
Photos
≈2,290
Videos
≈106
Links
≈328
Lifetime counters from Telegram’s own channel header, read 13 August 2026 — not the date at the top of this page, which is when the subscriber count was last read. A count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints these counters in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈142,000 means somewhere between 141,500 and 142,499.
Reaction mix
1,452 reactions across 20 posts, in 2 distinct kinds. The most used accounts for 64.1% of them.
Every reaction kind recorded on the sample, most used first
Reaction
Count
Share
Share, drawn
❤
931
64.1%
😭
521
35.9%
No sentiment is inferred, and none should be read in. This table is ordered by count and by nothing else. Emoji do not carry stable meaning across languages or communities — 🙏 is thanks in one channel and mourning in another — so we publish which ones were pressed and how often, and pass no judgement on what an audience meant by them.
Precision. Telegram publishes reaction counts per emoji and short-forms each one — 4.34K, 1.2M — so any single kind at or above 1,000 reaches us at three significant figures, and only counts below 1,000 are exact. The shares above are ratios of those figures and carry the same error. This is also why the total here can differ slightly from a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page: both are sums of the same rounded parts, taken over samples with different edges.
Coverage. Reactions were read on 20 of the 20 sampled posts in this sample. Summed by Telegram’s own count on each post — not by adding up the per-emoji breakdown above — those same posts carry 1,452reactions in total: the kind of figure the paragraph above means by “a reaction total printed elsewhere on the page”.
Measured over the 20 most recent posts we hold, published 1 June 2026 to 7 June 2026, using the newest reading held for each. Telegram Stars are excluded: they are a payment, not a reaction, and they have their own section.
حالا هربار که وارد دانشگاه میشم به اون لحظه فکر میکنم. اول میرم دانشکده فنی، کتابی که میخوام رو میگیرم حالا چندقدم میام جلوتر. آفتاب زده رو صورتم، عینکم رو میزنم. یجا خونده بودم که «همه چیز تا پونزده دقیقه قبل از فروپاشی خوب به نظر میرسه. الان همهچی عادیه. امیدوارم پونزده دقیقه قبل از حادثه نباشه.» حالا اما ۶۰ ثانیه قبل حادثهست. دوستم تو دانشکده منتظرمه. کافیه از کنار کتابخونه مرکزی بگذرم، فقط کافیه از اینج…
تو یه درختی.
بهم بگو من چقدر ایستادهام؟ من چقدر جوونم؟ بهم بگو آیا برای زنده موندن حتما نیازه یک درخت دیگه کنارم داشته باشم؟ من اگر تو جنگلی بیفتم، و هیچ کس اطرافم نباشه که صدای افتادنم رو بشنوه، آیا اصلا افتادن من صدایی خواهد داشت؟
دستم رو نگیر، دنبالت نمیام.منتظرم نمون، تو گرما نیا، موقع خداحافظی بغلم نکن، از اینکه چرا امروز حالم خوب نیست نپرس، با من نخند، با من راه نیا، باهام رازی نداشته باش، بهخاطرم مسیر دورتر رو انتخاب نکن. منو به خونه نرسون. به چشمام نگاه نکن. به چشمام نگاه نکن. به چشمام نگاه نکن.
مساله بر سر اینه که گاهی ناکافی هستی اما گاهی نمیخوای باشی که اصلا به کافی بودن برسی. اقا میشه من رو ول کنی؟ ممکن هست تصور کنی من با تو تو این اتاق نیستم؟ فکر کن من یه خیال بودم. از اولشم نبودم.
چیه این آدم بودن؟ چیه این بزرگسالی؟ چیه این ناکافی بودن؟ چیه این عاشق شدن؟ چیه این احساس ترسیدن؟ چیه شبها نخوابیدن؟ چیه این دیر رسیدن؟ چیه این «نبودن»؟
یه آدم مگه ممکنه چقدر نباشه آخه؟
شب که میشه دلم داستان میخواد. روایت کردن میخواد. حرف زدن میخواد. آشتی کردن میخواد. نگاه کردن و نگاه کردن و نگاه کردن میخواد. شب که میشه بیچارم اما تمام جهان برای منه. چون شبه گناهی وجود نداره. چون شبه اشتباهی نیست. میگما بنظرت شبها باهم صحبت کنیم؟
Showing the 12 most recent of 20 posts we hold for @Belacio. View and reaction counts are the latest single reading for each post, not a live figure, and a recent post is still accumulating both. A view count marked ≈ was rounded by Telegram before we ever saw it — t.me prints views in full below 1,000 and to three significant figures above, so ≈1,200,000 means somewhere between 1,150,000 and 1,249,999. Unmarked counts are exact. Text is reproduced from the public post preview and truncated for length.
Citation-graph rank
Citation-graph rank — 495,029 of 1,169,250entries in the measured graph. A weighted position computed from the forward and mention edges below — republished posts weigh more than named mentions — and recomputed periodically, over the whole graph. Published only as this ordinal position, never as a score: a position is a fact, and a score printed beside one channel’s name would read as a verdict this register does not make. The two counts beneath stay separate for the same reason mentions are never summed with forwards anywhere else on this page — a named-by count costs nothing to manufacture. The top 100 by this measure, or how it is computed.
Forward network
Republished by
Channels on the register that have forwarded this channel's posts into their own feed.
Built only from forwarded posts we have actually read, on both sides. Coverage is early and deliberately incomplete: a missing link means we have not read the post that would prove it, never that the relationship does not exist. Counts are distinct forwarded posts observed, so they only ever go up as we read more.
Mentions
Names
Channels on the register whose handles appear in this channel's posts.
A mention is a weaker signal than a forward and is counted separately for that reason — naming a channel is not republishing it, and a handle in a post body is easy to place deliberately. The post counts beside each row below are distinct posts in which the handle appeared, from posts we have read on both sides — the “Named by N registered channels” figure above is a different count, of distinct NAMING CHANNELS rather than posts, and is not the sum of the rows under it.
Cite this entry
A live page changes as we take new readings, so a citation should name the measurement it is based on, not just the URL. The line below cites the subscriber count as measured 10 August 2026 — this
entry's latest reading, not the date you are reading this.
“بلاچائو” (@Belacio), 9,999 subscribers as measured 10 August 2026. Telegram Register, tgregister.com/channel/Belacio.
Full measurement history, CC BY 4.0. Every reading this register holds for this entry, not just the latest one, as a dated, downloadable record: CSV · JSON. Free to use with attribution to tgregister.com. Each file carries its own generation timestamp, which is the figure to cite for exactly when the data was retrieved.